Deepavali. I was washing my dirty NS clothes, bags and other stuff for almost the whole afternoon. On the verge of completion, i received val's call. She asked me if i were free and whether i'd like to go to party world. It was a surprise (albeit not a very surprised one) for her to ask me out. When was the last time i saw her? On her pageant. And i nv dare ask her out since then, coz some things were no longer the same (like the fact that she had a bf). I won't dare to ask other gals out if i had a gf.

So we went to sing at party world, and i finally got my wish to sing songs like Khalil Fong's "Ai4 Ai4 Ai4", "Su1 Li4 Zhen1" and "Si4 Ren2 You2" that haunted me so much during bike course and David Tao's "Ji4 Mo4 de Ji4 Jie2" which me and alvin kept singing everytime we went outfield during ISPC (in order to 4get the physical torture).

But i can sense she's unhappy. I didn't want to say anything that's not apt, so i didn't mention anything. It feels lyk the 1st time we're singing..i can feel i'm gettin rusty after not singing for awhile and i juz can't get the duet rite.

After that, we went wisma atria food republic to eat, and it really reminds me of the very 1st time i came out wif here. The only thing that's diff is that we're eating at Bi4 Feng1 Tang2 (loosely translated as the pond for ppl to take shelter from the gale). I feel that is very apt..coz she feels like she's running away fr sth, and she needed a place to hide. I finally mustered the courage to ask her wat's wrong, and the answer was not far from what i expected. Relationship issues. She had been talking to me abt it on and off since i went 4 ISPC. Quarrels. Trust and doubt. It's part of parcel of a relationship..i tried to drive these into her. It's not easy to start one, and it's even more diff to maintain. I hope she dursent give up that easily..but if it brings her more suffering than happiness..i juz dun wanna see her suffering. Love shld be happy, isn't it? If it's agonising, why love?

I sent her home. But i think she still has much to settle, and home dursent shelter u fr everything.