Hmm..
Does anyone tell u tt if u start off with a bad day..u do not necessarily end off with a bad day..?
Well..2dae's ken's bdae..so happy bdae pal! I can see u r trying hard to improve ur relationship wif mountain/metapod/FJ..well..she's not tt cold to u anymore rite?
But i dun feel very happy 2dae..maybe itz bcoz i dun feel veh happy ytd..for photo takin,roman's bdae celebration..and this mayb bcoz i'm not veh happy the day b4..
This is a chain rxn!!!
Nvm..Did i mention i helped my mom for the burning of incense on tues? To ward 'them' off...i guess..there are 2 lunar 7th mths this yr..pretty scary at the thought of it..but what is more afraid than A's?
anw..i was bankrupt..from head to toe..and i still have to pay for ken's and angela's prezzies...pengz!
so i borrowed $$ fr hc lor..no choice..nv eat the whole day..heard tt her grandma was admitted to NUH..
vomiting..i heard..well,dun worry too much,gal..juz hope her health's alrite..
When i reached hm in the evening..there was a whole crowd of ppl gathering at the RC under my block...
There was buffet..and a large screen set up to film.."San Ge Hao Ren"..Interesting film abt 3 prisoners(Mark lee,Alamak,and tt Cheng Jian Hui hu's short and is once an RV alumni..)
How they got in2 prison..quite hilarious..
I oso saw Wei Liang..Poor baby..he wasn't as active as b4..i still rmb last tym how he ran ard in my hse..after 1 mth in nursery..he was totally quiet and passive..WHAT HAPPENED???
And the thing tt saddened me most is he dursent realli recognize me..Haiz~
I feel realli sad..i knew a baby's memory is not superb(personally, i dun rmb wat happened to me b4 i was 3 yrs old..and my mom said i learnt abc at age 3..1 yr ltr than my sis)..
But it realli saddened me tt the baby 4gotton me and my mom after 1 mth..1 rather short mth..
Maybe compared to us..1 mth is very long for him indeed..itz 1/24 of his life..since he's only 2 yrs old..
The only person he still rmb is probably my bro..he's closer to him..
Are humans' memories so insignificant?
Am i so insignificant?
Will anyone still rmb me after i leave this world?
haiz~
Izzit fair for me to rmb all e stuff abt my frenz(their bdae,the tym we spend in class,cca,outside..the times we talk/play/quarrel..and basically all my memories abt them) while alot of them actualli did not spend the effort to rmb things abt me??
Sometimes..I realli wonder..if this is all a dream..
If i am viewing my life lyk a movie once more time b4 i die..
If i am replaying a video of my life..
Or even worse..SOMEONE ELSE may actually be replaying my memories and viewing my life as a 1st person--me..
I'm realli scared at the tot of death..
What happens after death?
If i dun have any memories after my death..wat's the pt of living a life then?
If all my experiences,my thoughts,my memories will be lost eventually, why do i have to go thru all these..
sometimes..i'm really scared..to lose everything tt i have..tt i once have..
While i am typing this..tt feeling came again..
THAT FEELING..which haunts me..which tells me tt i will become nth in the end..i will not rmb anything in the end..i will not even rmb tt i was once alive..
All that i've once seen,heard,felt..all gone..
What is sight? What is hearing? What is touch..?
What am i doing?
Who am i?
What...
&its not what you think
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