NOT THE WAY!
its not how simple you thought it was
&its also not what you think

i really wish you could understand
&maybe someday, you'll understand why.
&no matter how worse things go, im always with you


ME!
birthday: 13 Feburary 1988
sex: Male
horoscope: Aquarius
zodiac: Rabbit
Occupation: Infantry Recce Trooper (past)
hometown: Sembawang, Singapore
nickname: stingray


THE PLEASURES OF LR!
fav food: curry,laksa, and other spicy food blah blah
fav fruit: GREEN apples and other sour fruits
fav number: 7
fav col: blue as default, but lucky colour varies by year
fav anime: D.Gray-man!
fav singers: Eason Chan, Wong Lee Hom, Leo Ku, Jay Chou, JJ Lin, David Tao, Gary Cao, Khalil Fong
fav movies: Inception, Source Code, In Time, Looper, Confession (Japanese), Devil, Avatar, Jurassic Park Series, Spiderman Series, LOTR Series, Infernal Affairs Series, Bourne Series, Harry Potter Series
fav book series: animorphs
fav local comics: The Celestial Zone series
fav comics: Yugioh!, Dragonball, D.Gray-man, 20th Century Boys
fav chinese novels: xun qin ji
fav historical novels: Romance of the 3 kingdoms, Water Margin, Journey to the West, Canonization of Deities


BREAK THE SILENCE!




THE BONDS OF LR!



THE LUST OF LR!




OUR YESTERDAYS!

June 2003
June 2004
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
September 2008
October 2010
March 2011
April 2011
May 2011
March 2012
February 2013
June 2013
November 2013
March 2014


THE DREAMS OF LR!

grow taller and darker?[failed]
learn to ride a bike
buy a new hp
earn 1 million by 30 yrs old
get a job
get class 2A bike licence
get class 3 driving licence
get psp/nds
get in touch with people whom i treasure
save at least 5k at the end of uni[failed]
buy a house where i'll have a room for multimedia devices, a room for dance and music, a room for books, a room for board games, a room for sports equipment, a room for toys, a room for mechanical equipment, a room for astrology and a room for my wife to put clothes!
do more community/charity work



THE WRATH OF LR!

10 SINNERS whom i MOST HATED
1.People who LIE to me
2.People who BETRAY me
3.People who WRONGLY ACCUSE me
4.People who are TWO-FACED
5.People who are CUNNING
6.People whose actions DON'T MATCH their words
7.People who HURT my FEELINGS(in any way)
8.People who SHOW OFF
9.People who try to LOOK FOR TROUBLE(with me)
10.People who are UNPREDICTABLE




THE APPLAUDS!

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{{ Monday, July 31, 2006

Again..another day at hm..i noe mondae got bio test..but i decide to start ltr at nite..so again i dilly dally in the morn till evening..
Yugioh was gd..
Seto Kaiba vs Ishizu Ishtar
It's Kaiba's duel of destiny..
Ishizu has a millenium necklace tt can predict the future events..and she predicted kaiba's every move in the game and his eventual loss due to the summoning of his divine card: The God of Obelisk..
When Kaiba summoned Obelisk..he almost attacked wif it..but the millenum rod of Marik Ishtar(younger brother of Ishizu) shone a light on Kaiba..
It appears tt Kaiba has an affinity wif the millenium rod 5000 yrs ago(while he was still an Egyptian priest) and the rod contained memories of him in the past..
He juz see a vision: He himself holding a dying gal in his arms..wif a stone tablet carved wif Blue Eyes White Dragon (Trivia: In the later episodes in ancient Egypt, the gal actually has a spirit of Blue Eyes White Dragon inside her..and she sacrificed herself in order to let Kaiba take control of the powerful monster in her in order to save their kd fr the great evil..)
And he decided to believe in his card "Blue Eyes White Dragon" instead and sacrificed the God Card "Obelisk"..and thereby he changed his destiny..He emerged victorious in the duel!

Lesson Learnt: Even if other ppl predict u will not succeed,have faith and believe in yourself..then u will eventually succeed and change ur destiny! Ur destiny is created by ur own hands!! not the visions of others!

Played ps during late afternn..and realise i only touched a few of the newly borrowed ps cds...NO TIME TO PLAY!!
Evening watched Central Affairs again..and realize there's no complete gd guy in the show..
Even the most decent of all,Seasons, oso played bad guy by sabotaging the relationship of her shifu,selina and charles..Haiz~is this the real world???
Johnny became the new chairman of MIG..and he removed an enemy along the way,Queenie...
Poor Queenie..thou i think she deserved it..i tink itz sad to see her tragic ending..behind bars and no money to treat his sick bro..
It leads me thinkin..maybe everyone is not so bad after all..coz they have motives when they do things..and those motives are generally for good..lyk helping their family members etc..

The show tt realli inspired me for the day and leaves deep thoughts in me is chn U movie at 9pm.."Da4 Zhi1 Lao3" by cecelia cheung)zhang bo zhi) and Andy Lao..i mean Andy Lau..lol
The story goes lyk this..

There was this lady in the police force..hu was supposed to be a member of a police team tt was sent to crack a murder case..
She met da zhi lao,a macho guy hu's gd at martial arts and can see yin1 guo1 (cause and effect) when he looks at a human or object..
By looking at the crime scene,he was able to ACT out wat happened..An indian guy fought and killed his fellow disciple(Shi1 di4) of the same sect coz he once betrayed him..and DZL imitated ALL the martial arts movements and explain how the room got in a mess..very nice filming technique tt interchanges b/w the actual scene and the post murder scene while the fight took place..COOL!!

Then they went to catch the murderer..it's so funny seeing DZL trying to drive a bike..when he learnt to drive it while playing in arcade! I tot it was a comedy initially..
The gal brought DZL to inspect the victim's body..and DZL saw some visions..(cause of the murder case)
Very long ago..the indian guy and the victim are disciples of the same sect..but they have to fight each other..the elder one(indian guy) was winning and cld kill his bro..but his bro prayed for mercy..and he did not kill him..wif his back to his younger bro..the elder one saw a beetle sruggling in a puddle of water on the battlefield,so he picked it up and allowed it to fly off..but as the beetle flew off,one of its left limbs broke..
Juz b4 the elder one turned to face his bro,he was backstabbed by him and killed him..and the beetle saved by the elder one flew to his body and died wif him..

And how does DZL explain this vision?
He said tt the indian guy killed the victim this life for him to repay his debt..and he wanted the policegal to search for a lady wif a broken left arm coz she is a keyperson in the murdercase..and he said tt a police force member will die..

The policegal cldnt find the lady wif the broken arm..but they got news of the indian guy..it appears tt he has got in2 the hse of this chinese lady hu decided to help him to get away to safety..
so they rushed to the airport to search for the murderer..and alot of policeman was injured by the indian guy..thruout the chaos,the lady hu helped him escape was injured in the left arm by a shotgun!!
Prediction #1 came true..
Then the murderer hid inside the pipes..and according to DZL's vision(where he saw the beetle tt flew away was reunited wif the dead elder disciple)..DZL predicted the indian guy wld go back to the lady again..only the policegal was wif the lady..and she was grabbed by the indian in2 the pipes...when DZL came to the rescue and trapped the indian in a twisted pipe..
The police head was abt to kill him when DZL intercepted..preventin worst case scenario(death of a police officer) to happen..

And all was well and the policegal was promoted to CID..
Then DZL saw a strange vision in her..he saw a jap officer killing thousands of ppl..(thinkin qn! wat does this mean?)

everytime the policegal encounters life-threatening situations while catching thieves,DZL will appear to save her(So sweet..the gals wld sae)..but everytime after he saved her, the vision of the jap officer killin ppl wldnt go away fr her..

In the end,DZL told her indirectly tt the jap officer was her past and she killed too many ppl..no matter how many times he saved her..she was still destined to die coz of the deeds of the jap officer..so he left her..

Knowing tt DZL was previously a monk, the policegal(Lee XX) went to the monastery he was once in and ask the monks there abt his past..
It appears tt a gal he lyk in the past was killed by a villager named sun1 guo3..and tt guy went to hide in the mountains..
They tried to search for him,but to no avail..
and DZL was so angry he whacked the branches wif a stick and accidentally killed a bird..he sat down,stared at the dead bird and meditated for six day six nites..on the 7th day, he was enlightened and cld see yinguo(cause and effect)..and he took off his monk robe and leave the monastery..

The monks then tell DZL abt the gal's visit..and the blind head monk told him he sensed the gal will die soon..
when asked y he kept saving the gal..DZL said :"Izzit me hu saved the gal or izzit the gal hu saved herself?"
And the blind monk asked:"So wat do u see in her?"
"Kindness..tt's y i wana save her..and tt's how she saved herself fr countless deaths.."

DZL and the gal eventually met again..and they were having dinner..The gal told DZL since she's dying soon..she mite as well do gd things for others and live a fruitful life..
Den comes sth funny..the gal asked y the chicken in the plate they eat ends up there..
DZL:"he was once a drug trafficker in the past."
gal:"then wat abt the duck?"
DZL:"oso a drug trafficker..and she's the wife of the chicken..they have yin1 yuan2 for 3 lives..tt's why they're even in the same plate!'''"
gal,picking up a sotong fr the plate and asked:"so hu's this in its previous life?"
DZL:"This is the xiao3 lao3 po2 of the chicken..since she was oso once a trafficker,all of them are in the same plate"...lol!

After this is a commercial,and when the show returns...i'm damn shocked tt the gal was found dead!
Wat happened? The police found her belongings in the mountains near the monastery...as well as a camcorder tt the gal owaes bring ard..
so tragic lah!
In the camcorder..the gal revealed tt she wana try to find sunguo,the guy hu killed DZL's love..and on the 6th day..she met sunguo..hu attacked and killed her by beating her wif a pole and using a rock to knock her head..the process being recorded in the camcorder..so sad!
Then came the flashback of the gal..abt wad happened to her during her 1st 6 days in the mountains, b4 she met sunguo and got killed..
DZL is filled wif sadness and tried to find her remains..in the end, he found her headless corpse buried in the soil and her head in between the branches of a tree...he was blaming himself for her death when suddenly,he noticed someone running away fr him..and so he chased after him..

Initially i tot tt person was sunguo..and DZL followed the guy's tracks to a place where there was a great Buddha statue..
but wat a surprise~!
Tt person looks exactly the same as DZL..juz tt he had long beard and moustache..and he seemed to have stayed in the forest for a very long time...
Tt person(let's call him Alterego DZL) told him he is DZL 5 yrs ltr..
and he cld see yinguo (cause and effect) juz lyk DZL..
ADZL told DZL:(*note..some of the language has been altered to create an entertaining and thought provoking effect..but the general gist of wat ADZL said is conserved)
"When i saw the reason why xiaocui(the gal DZL liked)died..i feel tt she deserved it!
When i saw the the bird's bad deeds and knew reason why the bird died,i feel tt she deserved it..
After 5 yrs in the forest..i found sunguo..i saw the bad deeds he had done and i noe he deserve to die..so i rushed 4wrd and killed him..
then after a period of tym..i saw ur fren..
i saw a vision on tt gal..a jap officer killing thousands of ppl..
and i feel tt she deserve to die!!!!
however..i felt strange initially..coz the way she looked at me is so awkward..her expression is so awkward..
and i led her into an ulu place..(well..isn't everywhere ulu in the mountains?)..and i used a stick to beat her till she had only a breath left..
i could have killed her wif one last whack fr my stick..but i didn't...coz i feel she deserve to die in great sufferings..coz of wat she did in her past. So he dragged her to a place where he used a rock to knock her head off her body..so tt she had a slow and painful death..(Yucks! so sadistic)
and then i buried her headless body in2 the soil and threw her head into the trees.."

DZL was flabbergasted and in a loss of words..
ADZL continued:"And u noe wat's the cause of the death of ur fren? The cause is tt u killed sunguo. this is yin guo lun2 hui2 (retribution)..if u/i had not killed him..she wldnt have died in ur/my hands.."

And ACZL tempted DZL to fight him..so they fought..and DZL was abt to kill him..when he stopped..and was enlightened..ADZL tried to backstab and kill him..but stopped too..and both of them sat down facin each other..and ADZL just disappeared in2 thin air..so ADZL was actually a negative part of him..
(i was confused abt wat happened..i initially tot tt the bad DZL actualli killed sunguo and the gal..and he was replicated when DZL took off his robe and left the monastery..but after discussing wif zihao..he told me tt ADZL is an imaginary kter created by the Buddha to let him gain enlightenment on the issue of yin yuan..and the policegal is realli killed by sunguo)

After DZL gained enlightenment..he stayed in the mountains/forest for 5 yrs...b4 he met sunguo..but he didn't kill him (lyk wat ADZL does)..instead he waited for sunguo to ask him a qn..
"Xian4......Zai4......ji3......shi2.......?..."
DZL:"Xian Zai shi 2007...ard july..."
And he hugged sunguo and 4gave him for killin xiaocui and sunguo..

He brought the guy back to the village..and went back to the monastery..

Lesson Learnt:
What you reap is what u sow...anything tt happens is due to wat u have done in the past (not the past long long ago..but the immediate past)..
Therefore...In the future..i shld think b4 i do sth..and not act recklessly(I've often acted recklessly during some occasions in the past w/o considering the consequences..and sometimes these consequences are undesirable..)
Think b4 u act..
And try to do more gd things to accumulate good karma..
And try to think positive...
Forgive and forget...tt's the only way to transform enemies to frenz..


&its not what you think
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