its not how simple you thought it was
&its also not what you think

i really wish you could understand
&maybe someday, you'll understand why.
&no matter how worse things go, im always with you


birthday: 13 Feburary 1988
sex: Male
horoscope: Aquarius
zodiac: Rabbit
Occupation: Infantry Recce Trooper (past)
hometown: Sembawang, Singapore
nickname: stingray


fav food: curry,laksa, and other spicy food blah blah
fav fruit: GREEN apples and other sour fruits
fav number: 7
fav col: blue as default, but lucky colour varies by year
fav anime: D.Gray-man!
fav singers: Eason Chan, Wong Lee Hom, Leo Ku, Jay Chou, JJ Lin, David Tao, Gary Cao, Khalil Fong
fav movies: Inception, Source Code, In Time, Looper, Confession (Japanese), Devil, Avatar, Jurassic Park Series, Spiderman Series, LOTR Series, Infernal Affairs Series, Bourne Series, Harry Potter Series
fav book series: animorphs
fav local comics: The Celestial Zone series
fav comics: Yugioh!, Dragonball, D.Gray-man, 20th Century Boys
fav chinese novels: xun qin ji
fav historical novels: Romance of the 3 kingdoms, Water Margin, Journey to the West, Canonization of Deities














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grow taller and darker?[failed]
learn to ride a bike
buy a new hp
earn 1 million by 30 yrs old
get a job
get class 2A bike licence
get class 3 driving licence
get psp/nds
get in touch with people whom i treasure
save at least 5k at the end of uni[failed]
buy a house where i'll have a room for multimedia devices, a room for dance and music, a room for books, a room for board games, a room for sports equipment, a room for toys, a room for mechanical equipment, a room for astrology and a room for my wife to put clothes!
do more community/charity work




10 SINNERS whom i MOST HATED
1.People who LIE to me
2.People who BETRAY me
3.People who WRONGLY ACCUSE me
4.People who are TWO-FACED
5.People who are CUNNING
6.People whose actions DON'T MATCH their words
7.People who HURT my FEELINGS(in any way)
8.People who SHOW OFF
9.People who try to LOOK FOR TROUBLE(with me)
10.People who are UNPREDICTABLE





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In the last 3rd episode of CID..
Sean(tay ping hui) told the blind ye xue(Ivy Lee) a story...
"there was a fisherman hu told another fisherman happily...
'i was out at sea when i met a storm tt destroyed my ship and caused me to lose all the fishes tt i've caught for the past 3 days..'
'Then why do u still look so happy?'
'Don't u think tt being alive is the happiest thing in the world?'"

Then Siwei(qi yu wu) got drunk..and asked sean a qn?
"What do humans live in the world for?"
Sean answered simply..
"In this world, the people hu love us r the ppl whom we love...we live..bcoz of them...bcoz of the ppl we love.."
"What if u have alr lost the one tt u love??" Siwei retorted..he felt he cldn't live on losing Liwen(Apple hong)..
"There r alot of other ppl hu love u too..wat abt ye xue? She got herself blind while trying to PROTECT u!!"

Why am i alive??
Why don't i juz die??
Losing the one u love dursent mean u shld give up on urself..and waste ur life away..coz there are still alot of ppl out there hu loves u and deserves ur love..and it is meaningful to live for the people whom u love and protect u...

Maybe itz true..but i juz don't feel good..
Why can't i succeed in things i do?
I juz dowan to lose to destiny...
i'll beat destiny to its own game..
i'm gg to create my own life...
i'm gg to create my own future..
i'm not gg to die so easily...
i'm gg to prove everyone tt i can do it..
and i'm gg to surprise everyone by my efforts...
i'm gg to proceed on devoid of all distractions...
i have to sacrifice some things for the others..
i'll lose sth if i wana gain sth..
and i'm prepared for tt...
i do not have to feel sorry for myself on losing those stuff...
coz i noe tt i will be better off if i sacrifice my time and energy into something tt' worth it...
i've come so far....
if i had lost all the way..it dursent matter if i lose again now...
but if i had won all the way..and i lost now...
i'll be unable to face the opponents tt i've defeated..and they'd be ashamed of me...
I shall perservere on..for myself...and for my frenz...
I shall perservere on..be it for the better..or for the worse..

&its not what you think
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