its not how simple you thought it was
&its also not what you think

i really wish you could understand
&maybe someday, you'll understand why.
&no matter how worse things go, im always with you


birthday: 13 Feburary 1988
sex: Male
horoscope: Aquarius
zodiac: Rabbit
Occupation: Infantry Recce Trooper (past)
hometown: Sembawang, Singapore
nickname: stingray


fav food: curry,laksa, and other spicy food blah blah
fav fruit: GREEN apples and other sour fruits
fav number: 7
fav col: blue as default, but lucky colour varies by year
fav anime: D.Gray-man!
fav singers: Eason Chan, Wong Lee Hom, Leo Ku, Jay Chou, JJ Lin, David Tao, Gary Cao, Khalil Fong
fav movies: Inception, Source Code, In Time, Looper, Confession (Japanese), Devil, Avatar, Jurassic Park Series, Spiderman Series, LOTR Series, Infernal Affairs Series, Bourne Series, Harry Potter Series
fav book series: animorphs
fav local comics: The Celestial Zone series
fav comics: Yugioh!, Dragonball, D.Gray-man, 20th Century Boys
fav chinese novels: xun qin ji
fav historical novels: Romance of the 3 kingdoms, Water Margin, Journey to the West, Canonization of Deities














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grow taller and darker?[failed]
learn to ride a bike
buy a new hp
earn 1 million by 30 yrs old
get a job
get class 2A bike licence
get class 3 driving licence
get psp/nds
get in touch with people whom i treasure
save at least 5k at the end of uni[failed]
buy a house where i'll have a room for multimedia devices, a room for dance and music, a room for books, a room for board games, a room for sports equipment, a room for toys, a room for mechanical equipment, a room for astrology and a room for my wife to put clothes!
do more community/charity work




10 SINNERS whom i MOST HATED
1.People who LIE to me
2.People who BETRAY me
3.People who WRONGLY ACCUSE me
4.People who are TWO-FACED
5.People who are CUNNING
6.People whose actions DON'T MATCH their words
7.People who HURT my FEELINGS(in any way)
8.People who SHOW OFF
9.People who try to LOOK FOR TROUBLE(with me)
10.People who are UNPREDICTABLE





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<2003..sometime in early June..>

The SARS virus had deprived me of school for almost a whole month...and i had such a long break that i began to doubt myself..
"Am i still fully fit...for the big event?"

We had only 1 month of preparation for the 'big event' after sch reopens..but months of tireless and never-ending practice since Nov 02 should have well prepared me for it..SHOULD..

This wasn't the 1st time tt i stepped on the stage in ACS Barker...or in fact...kneeling...if tt was the appropriate term to use..

But i still felt scared...even though i had performed onstage for quite a number of times...Still,my mind was in a whirl...
"When will the music start?"
"What a small stage.."
"Itz so cold here..."
"Can someone turn the aircon off?"
"Is anyone watching from the seats..?"
"How many people are there..?"
"Shit...is my leg going to cramp again?!"
"Arggh..why is it taking so long..??!!"

Then, like a sudden jolt of lightning that struck through my heart, body and soul...The music began..And all forms of emotions disappeared away from me...
'Juz noe tt i have to dance...Forget everything else..juz concentrate on the dance..like what sulao and huanglao have said b4..."Once the music begins, forget everything else..juz concentrate on the dance..."'

'Happy Valley'...by Vanessa Mae...a music piece that was written to celebrate the return of Hong Kong to China..after a hundred years of British colonial rule...was transformed into "Fervent Beat of my Homeland"...the very dance that i had practised for hundreds of days...and had heard hundreds of times...

I danced freely!

What a wonderful experience to dance onstage!

Can u believe a person can really fly when he/she is dancing?

Me and my friends...seniors and juniors...boys and gals...worked 2gether beautifully to create an enthralling piece of contemporary chinese art!

And the dance was over...i was gasping for air..
How tiring! But how satisfying! I hoped my front flip wasn't tt bad..

Then like a loud clap of thunder..came the applause...and i knew this was a success!

Even thou the SYF Central Judging was still at least 1 and a half mths away..this pre-selection performance had enabled us to successfully enter the SYF Closing Night 2003...

'And i'm looking 4ward to it..'

&its not what you think
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